Getting Older or Not?

They said that ages will make you become a wise person. 

Something wrong.  Q
I miss my freedom.
I feel I live in tiny space.
Couldn't take my deep breath.
I live but not growing.
I am getting older but not getting wiser. 

I'll have to take a leap and do something. 

This Year

Don't we need a day to be happy?

Why do I still bave this unhappy feeling, knowing all people sing and dance at this at this moment.

I feel so sad.
Thinking I am not in the right place.
And also feeling I am different.

Attitude

I am just a human who might make some mistakes today.

I am just a human who sometimes could not hide my hateful sneer.

We are human. We deserve to make mistakes. We have to improve and push our selves to the limit. 

Mind Your Words

I was so proud that I thought I was always being tactful with everyone.

I am wrong.

Last Sunday I hurt people I care so much with harsh words. And I regret my lapse. I let my emotion ruled the words. And the outcome was not good. Just like what Rasul said.

I am asking Allah forgiveness. And always hope Allah love will give the best answer to the messed up I have done.

A Thin Line Between Joking and Lying

I think this blog is the place where I could talk openly about my difficulties to understand the world, seeing something unfair happened and my failure to handle the case objectively without emotionally involved.

I could not describe the case right now, but I just know that I felt hurt and I really hate this kind of situation.  I think one of the reason of this hurting feeling is knowing that you've been lied by someone and he/she still thinks that she's right and I am just too sensitive. I think this hadist will discribe my situation very well.

Abu Hurairah Radhiyallahu ‘anhu menceritakan, para sahabat bertanya kepada Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam : “Wahai, Rasulullah! Apakah engkau juga bersenda gurau bersama kami?” Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam menjawab: Betul, hanya saja aku selalu berkata benar. [2]

(Source: alamanhaj.or.id)

Well, I did something wrong today. I joined group of people who love jokes and comedy. And it was just too much.